so i've noticed something that has always bothered me. i used to be mouthy as fuck (if you've read any of my previous posts, you'd know that). i used to rant on facebook all the time, i was starting drama all the time and just an unruly mess. i literally didn't care. i said and did whatever i wanted; i mouthed off everyone and was in hindsight, ridiculous about many things. but usually, there was a method to my madness. i didn't always mouth off people that didn't deserve it. i was fed up with being an under dog. i had a point to prove.
i was chastised for it, too. people hated it. i was ranted about on facebook for my posts more than a couple times. people called me a hypocrite and a piece of crap. so, i kind of withdrew from that sort of behavior. plus, people were dropping out of my life like dead flies, even people i hadn't insulted lol.
so, where i'm getting at is i've noticed the people were angry with me are bff with other people like how i was. there was this girl... um, we'll call her 'jane'. she basically was me in girl form. actually no, she was a ton worse. you could just sense that this girl had zero idea of who she was. she's constantly changing her look, constantly changing her sexuality, constantly being ruthless for no reason. the most contrived person i've ever seen in my life. anyway, she has all these friends that were mad about me causing drama all the time! um excuse me? lol. she literally is worse than i am. most of the time, her rants don't even make sense. she incoherently babbles about how much of a cunt someone is. that's one of her favorite words haha. she called me that; a title i've proudly adopted.
then there's this other kid. i dated him. we'll call him 'john'. he's the nastiest kid around. i wish i had known that when i dated him, but it was 10th grade... what do ya do? he dates everything that breathes. like 'jane' he cannot choose a sexuality, although it's blatant that he's gay. anyway so once we were talking and hanging out and he's like 'ya know, you're just too feminine. i can't date you'. lol what? MEANWHILE, HE'S DOING DRAG. he said he was more masculine than me and that he's stronger than me. all this crap that was not even true. lol. anyway, so he goes through guys like underwear. oh just kidding, the kid doesn't wear them. but you get my point. his butthole flaps is what i'm saying. he also posts crap about people constantly and will get a billion likes on a post about how trashy people are. um. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND. I don't get what makes his posts any different than mine? is it because his are light hearted and mine are the fucking truth? lol. whatever. i don't know why i'm so fixated on this crap when it happened forever ago. do you ever just hold grudges? i'm gonna die of a heart attack one of these days from all this anger i have built up in me.
anyway, thanks for reading my stupid rant which i doubt nobody will. :*